Entry #2

One year ago today I I left a toxic friend group, they would make group chats without one person who was in the friend group (and probably still is) just to talk badly about about them, they would always be fighting with someone, and the second you said something they were doing or saying was bothering you they would draw themselves as the victim they would lie and they would get mad. There's a ton more than just that but I don't feel like adding all the details. Still, I find myself re-reading all our group chats wishing I would've stayed because just maybe they would've changed, when I left the friend group I didn't wanna make them mad or make things awkward so I just started avoiding them and ghosting them and distancing myself until they had forgotten about me, but still even now I don't really trust being friends with anyone because I feel like they'll just switch up one day and start acting like my old friends so I just start distancing myself from them without even being aware that I am so that nothing bad will happen. But because of this I don't even have any friends anymore and it's my completely my fault so I feel like I shouldn't even be complaining.