I guess I'll use this as a little diary??

If anything, I need a place to write without actually writing it lol. Also no one here knows me loll so I feel anonymous typing this. Like guys, do you ever have the best things happen to you, but you still feel like shit??? Like, I have a new boyfriend who literally is the best and things are going good but I'm just not happy with myself??? I feel so stupid saying this, but I am just not happy. Perchance, I hate myself even. idk, I'm not good with expressing my emotions. I would tell my boyfriend about this, but he has a lot of homework, and I don't want to bother him. I also feel like if I told my friends, I would just be an attention seeker. 

IDK chat, I just want my stupid brain to be happy for once!!!! 

I went for a walk earlier and I completely forgot how quickly it gets dark now. It felt like it was maybe 9-10pm but it was only 7pm. It was nice but it felt lonely. I had music playing but I still felt lonely. 

Sorry for this bummer of an entry, didn't mean to make it sound so sad loll. Maybe another day my next entry would be happier.