My church

I'm not Christian but I am forced to go to church and my church is scaring me. Like this youth group keeps trying to get me to join which I don't want to(cause I'm not Christian and im socially awkward.) But every Sunday they try to convince me and today was weird. I had like three girls(that I've never seen in my life) just constantly around me and one came up to me and was like "Hi (deadname) we missed you last weekend." And I was like deadpan " ok" to her. "Do you want a flyer?" "No." And just walked past her. I know it was kinda an asshole thing to do but I'm just getting weirded out and uncomfortable with them trying to force on me when I clearly don't want to go (I haven't gone for any of them and there's been like 5 now.) Idk AITA? My church is just scaring me at this point.