i think i'm going to die with regrets

i want so bad to be in a band and/or have a fashion brand. i told my bsf only the fashion bit, all she replied to it was "womp womp" and nothing else, i dont even know how that makes sense in this context. she's doing textiles as gcses and pursuing her fashion dream, so i thought it'd make sense to talk to her about this but no. anyway, most of my friends are so much braver than me, pursuing what they want to become, they all seem happy. im scared. i so wished i took either textiles or music instead of comsci, i like comsci but sometimes i wish i was brave. i long for making music and clothes, but i know that wont be. i dont know what it is in me, but i feel like if i pursue music, i won't be able to find love or be able to make a family, i don't want to give up family, i also long for the feeling of holding a part of me. and i feel like if i pursue my fashion dream it wont suceed. me and my bsf have made some goals together, we already got the name of her fashion brand, we said that i could design some of the clothings and that she makes them since thats the vision her textiles teacher saw her doing in the future and that i could model her clothing, but now that i think about it, i really want to make clothes. i asked her if i should go to a fashion college and thats when she replied with "womp womp" i sadi "what? anyway should i" and she hasnt responded this was like a day or two ago. i dont know what to do, i know i want to be a real estate agent, but its mostly for the money. in the uk you don't need a degree for real estate agent (we do need to pass a test tho) so i feel like going to a fashion college would be both good for me and my parents as they want me to go to both college and uni, and i feel like id be happy. i don't know. this situation has made me cry. i want to be happy, i want to be successful. i love music and fashion so much, if i still use spacehey in my 20s i'll update.