vulnerability

i don't have the strength nor the mentality to clean up my room and take care of myself most of the time. i sleep a lot, i try to study to satisfty my mother, who literally does not care if i'm suffering or not. she refused to take me to a doctor because she does not believe i'm mentally ill.

but i'm suffering, in fact. i'm trying my best to stay alive (i'm living for my cat and my sister). idk. i'll live but it's tiring