tidy room

my room is so messy and ugly i wish my moral slate was clean because i dont want to tally up sins but at least everyone knows im so sorry. im glad that god is angry and jealous because im like that too and i try to hide it but god makes us in his image which makes me feel less lonely and guilty about my feelings. i need to tidy my rooom but im too busy tidying my things up i think im so lonely that i start to pray but i dont really know what i beleive in i just like the idea that he made us to be like him becuase it makes me feel better. i dont know how to write properly right now because i'm tired and i get embarrassed trying to express my thought but i am good at writing so i might make something nice later if i dont get too scared to look inside me. all i really want though is for my friends to be happy but i know theyre not and i dont know how to save them. i understand the holy trinity a lot though i'm not really a christain i'm just myself but i often feel like three different people as well and it's nice to try and understand that i have differnet parts of myslelf like god. i like to try and not hate anyone and see things from other peoples points of veiw all the time but it can be hard i just hope my friends think i'm emotionally empathetic and know that they can talk to me. have a good day anyone reading this ily all.