10/12/24

I’m so anxious even though i already took my when needed anxiety meds. My heart is pounding -_- wish I could sleep the days away 💤 

I have sooooo much homework but it seems impossible to even start. I refuse to fail freshmen year though, i wish they just gave me a break. Apparently 5 fractured bones and three surgeries isn’t enough to get a pass. I can’t even feel relaxed anymore, its a hole in my gut telling me I’m a failure for fucking up the first year of high school. I would usually say ‘it’ll figure itself out tho’ but I literally can’t be that positive rn. ANYWAY!! It’s still only 2:00 pm, so I could do something with my life.

Definitely not homework though. No matter if I do it or avoid it I’ll have a breakdown, and I’m wayyy to tired for one of those. I like how the tiredness feels today, it’s so opposite from yesterday. It weighs down my bones, keeping me still. Maybe I’ll update in another blog today what I ended up doing. Be safe and party responsibly for these upcoming holloween weekends