Dear Diary,

Today I went to the movies with my mom. It was pretty fun. We saw Transformers one the backstory for Megatron and stuff, it was the new one. 

I feel kinda annoyed/ scared tho. Like more stuff from the dreams and visions God has been giving me have been coming true more often. Do you remember that random dream of you on your phone looking up Transformers characters and you knew it was really close to when everything in the end of the world was going down? Well, that happened today. 

I don't care if I sound crazy to people, more things have been getting fulfilled. 

You know. 

I'm also kinda scared cause like, what if what God wants for me doesn't happen? I feel like I'm tooo weak. Like I can never stop myself from doing the things I'm not supposed to do, or not that I can't but that I don't want to, and that's really scary. 

I know that's probably how the devil wants me to feel, but it's such a hard feeling to shake. I don't know how God keeps forgiving me when I continue to betray him over and over again. Sometimes I wonder If there's even any point in doing all this If I'm just going to go back anyway. But, I know that's just what the devil's telling me to get me to stop following Jesus. I know that If I keep talking to him, (even if I don't want to and am extremely guilt-ridden) then things will be fine. I need to learn to trust in him with everything I have. 

I may suck, be he already knows that.

Anyways, here's some cute pics my mom took of me