The coziness of my cold laptop screen...

It's almost midnight so, vent posting babyyy 

Idk how to express that well in real life, nor that i try it that much so, almost all of my childhood and early teenage years where wasted in lonely halls of my school or being trapped inside myself, blocking out the exterior with my earbuds and just ignoring everything that happened in my close circle. I never went to a party, never had an extended group of friends and me and my only gf just lasted a few months before having a break up

But the online world was always there for me...

Sometimes it was just chatting, griting poems and stuff to upload them to twitter, listening to music or watching funny youtube videos, sometimes roleplaying and living lifes that i could never, the internet was a safe space for me, where i could talk to anyone without worrying about how i'd express because chatting is more direct that live talk, i could be myself without people mocking at me, it was really cool even thouhgt sometimes everything felt lonely, i really like that loneliness, it's cozy on it's own, a lonely place where i can be social.

i know i'm really REALLY young and i'm gonna have so much time to do all those things that i didn't do in high school, but still i kinda wish my parents shut down my computer more often to force me and go out lmao. But even when things are wrong in my personal life, that little corner of the internet where i belong it's always going to be there for me, forever, or at least until the y2k strikes and all technology goes down with it. XP