An Introduction

[10/8/24]
For someone who wants to blog about their life (to an extent) so badly, I sure am shit when it comes to an opening sentence. So, that will be my opening sentence.
I’m… not great at keeping a journal (although, I’m trying to right now). Therefore, I thought I’d keep a sort of “public journal”/blog. This blog won’t go into my life as extensively as my personal journal (of course), but I want a safe place to share my thoughts - even if it’s simply about what video game I’m playing right now.
I think having a blog on SpaceHey will help me feel a little less lonely if that makes sense. I don’t have a community of my own and, as of this moment, I don’t necessarily have any close friends that aren’t online. I know this is online (obviously), but hey, I’ll take what I can get lol.
Anyway…

Personal Info

Hi! I’m summeraestiva. Feel free to refer to me as “Summer” and/or “Aestiva.” It doesn’t matter which! You can even use them interchangeably if you’re feelin’ a lil’ silly.
I’m twenty-one years old as of writing this blog. My pronouns are she/her/they/them and I identify as Queer. I’m currently employed at a pet/animal supply store (a.k.a. retail *barfs*). I’m neurodivergent and suffer from both physical and mental chronic conditions.

Hobbies

I’ll be including both my current hobbies and hobbies I’d like to get into in this section.
Please feel free to either comment on this blog or my profile if we’re into the same things! Maybe I’ll send a friend request your way!

Current Hobbies

• Art/Drawing
I've been drawing since I was nine-years-old and don't plan on stopping! Although, I am in a bit of a rut at the moment. It seems like I just can't improve... Maybe an anatomy book will help?
An example of my work:


• Writing
While I don't write much due to my mental health issues at the moment, I am quite literally ALWAYS concocting stories in my head. Writing them down just takes so much mental effort sometimes, ya know? I have a bunch of "mental stories" of all different genres! I'm thinking of posting them on AO3, and in turn, posting the link on here if any of you are interested!

• Reading
Just like writing, reading is something I have trouble with and would like to do more often. Despite that, I have been reading little by little! I'm currently reading an entry from a series I liked a lot as a kid. Since it's not quite for my age range (but what is, really?), it's easy and light reading. Ugh, I have such a huge backlog of novels and manga I have to read...

• Video Games
SPEAKING OF BACKLOGS... I have an EXTENSIVE one of video games - both digital and physical copies. I have adored video games for... pretty much my whole life lol. My dream is to run my own indie studio and create video games - as well as animated series! I just, uh, need to finally go to college lmao.
I love video games of all genres! My favorite part of video games are their use as story-telling devices, so if a game has a good story? I'm in!
Current favorite game:


• Anime/Manga
So, this hobby is kinda complicated... Anime and manga have been a big part of my life for a long time - since I was about eight or nine, I think? Although, I haven't watched much of it. I love Vocaloid (which is what introduced me to anime, funnily enough), video games with anime artsyles/inspiration, and have even attended many anime cons - but actually watching it? I'm pretty bad at that. And it has nothing to do with the fact that it's anime at all! I just have a really hard time watching new media that isn't a youtube video... Does anybody else have that problem?
I'm watching one anime right now, at least! I'm currently on Season 2 of Sailor Moon and I'm really enjoying it!


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Hobbies on Hiatus

• Instruments/Making Music
I own four instruments at the moment - the guitar, piano (keyboard), ocarina, and marimba. I actually used to take lessons for the guitar! (And sometimes piano if there was time left in the session). But that was a long time ago... I don't think I've touched my guitar for more than five minutes since I was about thirteen. And it's a shame. I love music and it's a big part of my life. I would love to create my own music someday. I would also love to take vocal lessons too!!
I bought SynthV (a vocal synthesizer software similar to Vocaloid), but I just get so impatient and frustrated when using it. I'm going to continue to take stabs at it, so to speak, 'cause that shit was expensive lmao.

• Knitting
I tried knitting for a while, but similar to my SynthV experience, I kept getting impatient and frustrated once again when learning to knit. But it just looks so relaxing when you finally know what you're doing! I'd like to get back into it, but I'm not sure if I can... I have no idea where my knitting needles are...

My Daily Life in a Nutshell

To put it simply...
I have no life.
It feels that way to me, at least. Currently, all I do is work and rot in my room playing video games. I'm making no effort to do anything else with my time. I know my mental health issues (Generalized Anxiety, Depression, ADHD) affect me and what I do daily, but it's almost like I have no energy and motivation to do anything else. I was diagnosed with ADHD late in life - I was eighteen. And it still feels like I haven't figured out any coping mechanisms to traverse life while having ADHD... But, that's a conversation for a different blog post. As of writing this, I have therapy tomorrow, so I'll talk to him about how I feel then.
As for now, I hope you found this introductory post... at least a little interesting? I'll write more later!
Signing off!
- summeraestiva