update/coming out(?)

so I'm alive since my profile changed.

I also had my sexuality change which has made my life more comfortable. And mainly more happy with who I am as a person. 

recently I had realized I had a much more attraction 2 women than I do with men. And before I had definitely made sure. I sum what experimented in a way. I mainly payed attention 2 my thoughts and what I wanted in the future 4 myself. 

And I saw myself either married or in a relationship with women. So I feel more comfortable identifying as a lesbian. 

i've always kinda knew that I was. Since I dated a girl when I was around 13-15
(I can't remember the age)

and I deeply regretted it since I was talked out of that relationship. I deeply felt feelings for her like I never had and as I grew up. I repressed having crushes or feelings. Which caused me to try to fit in around 11th grade to force myself to have a crush on my ex who was a guy.

I never rlly liked it mentally. Since it was semi forced attraction. But I always thought about girls. 

especially my IRL friend I used 2 date. But were close friends and we find others attractive and have a friend bond between us. 

so um anyways. I like girls and I'm terrified since I haven't felt this way in so long. It feels good, but scary yk. 

-robbie/eli