Guyz idk what im doing anymore

so basicaly, i told my friend group about how i felt bc i felt like i was the laughing stock out of us three and i  (not gonna say real names so lets say Emma and Lucy) said to Emma that they were both acting bitchy and their stupid arses thought i called them a bitch (theyve called me worse than that like the litteral fucking N word) and we got into a big argument at lunch and i nearly cried. When i was walking home my gf (Emma) messaged me and said that she 'lost feelings' (how convinient) and now lucy (the main bully) is spreading lies and i only have one friend group left and im scared that if they belive the rumors then ill have no one. Im such a stupid idiot for telling them how i feel. I'm sometimes scared to go to school bcuz of them.