high school

Haii °°  

High school has been hell and it's only been a month ꩜ .ᐟ 

i am genuinely concerned for how my mental health will develop, at least school gives me motivation in putting efforts on my looks and honestly in anything else when it's summer i just rot in bed so there's sum positivity in that (˶˃⤙˂˶)

i became close to the popular guy at school but we only talked online, had a lot in common and he was definitely real cute : he asked me out ( ˶°ㅁ°) !!

i was NOT sure about it at all at first but i accepted. Real dumb decision, he treated me like a princess he was the sweetest i started actually catching feelings but i was so awkward irll it made me overthink about the way he saw me plus i accepted in the only condition to keep it secret.

he was my first ever boyfriend and i certainly did not want any problems with his fangirls (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

Suddenly he became weird he totally switched he wasn’t the sweet guy he once was, he was mean and the things he did and said hurted, i kept wondering if i was overdramatizing and he was just joking ? but he didn’t even reply to my messages no more he never texted too but again when we talked he was flirty time to time and also acted like a bf. so my head was all messy.

TILL ONE DAY (the day i decided to end it) the math teacher decided to put him next to me, the air was so heavy and then i saw his pencil case `LISA`it was the only thing marked there and it’s not my name, it's his ex's. i remember that feeling all the blood in my head went down. i texted him that day -are you sure you moved on ? her name is still on ur pencil case.

this ultimate asshole said -who said i ever did. ( he told me multiple times b4 ever b4 we got tg that he doesn’t love her no more and that he moved on) so i said so and he replied -i forgot

wtf

-listen these are ur feelings i can’t change em but i dont wanna get hurt so if ur just using me to forget her say so

- ?

-read the paragraph and answer (THE FACT THAT I HAD TO TELL HIM THAT IRRITATED ME BADDD HOW CHILDLISH CAN A MAN BE)

-even if i dated 2000 girls i'll never forget her so ig no

-let's break up

-just please don’t hate me sorry i was an asshole the whole time i was trying to make u fall out of love w me

Excuse me ? why did u even ask me out then ? i wanted to slap the shit out of him.

- u just made it worse but okay.

we stopped talking and m still so mad its been a week ago tho short ass relationship is getting in my mind more than expected. and guess what we're in the same classes and he lives in my neighborhood so every time i go out i meet him.

the only person who knew about it was my close friend of 10 years PLOT TWIST she cried in my arms 5 days ago cause she loved him b4 we got tg and she still does also cried when she knew about us. now i just found that disrespectful as hell.

i hate the teachers and their feelings towards me are mutual; everyone is so judgy and mean for no reason there's always multiple fights in a day fucking hell.