Not a good human.

The start of school was a new beginning, another one, one different but similar to all the previous ones, exhausting but at least I wouldn't be alone, after so much instability in my life, I finally had a friend from a year ago, who would help me. He was supporting even when he had no one.., sikee, he was just like the others.

At the beginning, he was as always, kind and warm, as usual, but as the days went by, after getting together with a new group of friends, he distanced himself from me, it didn't bother me, since I am able to understand why people can separate , deterioration of ties, death of connections.., the problem, he could never have me for him, completely, not as a friend, since we were like brothers, but as a couple, no, we dont match, but he never understand that.

Rumors are something of my daily life, like the oxygen I breathe, the environment I am in is as toxic as a nuclear power plant, so let's say that I have learned to show resistance to the situation. And yes, if you can handle it, why are you complaining about the situation? It's inhuman, it drains you every minute of the day, it absorbs all your mental energy until you find yourself lost, lying on the edge of your bed, with a marijuana cigarette in your hand while you stare at the ceiling trying to read the answers to your situation between the cracks, disgusted with yourself. I guess he will never be able to understand how he can destroy people's lives just by talking, I know he does it because he gets bored, when I confronted him he confirmed it to me, while making endless other accusations but no self-criticism.

You can say that you are not guilty, that you want to redeem yourself and be someone different, but you do not adapt to the environment to survive, you make sure that the environment is unbearable to maintain your false status among those who do not have their own thoughts.
A person who ruins the life of another, for fun, will never be innocent.
I hate you.