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I've always admired the people who I come across in my life. My parents, my friends, I always wondered what they had that made me feel inferior to them, I wanted to be like anyone else but me.

So I worked hard, I work hard to become the best at something, so that someone might look up to me one day, but even people who already do make me feel this envy. I'm not even sure what I'm envious about.

I really don't understand other people, and I can't get other people to understand me because I'm terrible at communicating my thoughts, almost as if I'm talking in a different language. So I'm stuck with my thoughts alone, at least it made me realize I can have secrets or just thoughts nobody will ever hear even after I die, which I suppose makes me feel rather relieved.

I'm so confused, even people who I know have had it worse than me have a more positive attitude, is it really just a me problem? Does anyone know how to fix it? Like a tutorial on how to be.

I'm not sure what I'm doing here, or what I'll do, I only know I'm not allowed to leave yet so I have to go through it regardless of my opinion on the matter.

Anyways,

Can y'all recommend me some songs? I've been listening to the same 5 songs on loop and it's getting boring lol