10/6/2024

I watched the Pats vs Dolphins game today... boooorrrinnggg I don't care for football..
I just really ate from the snackboard my mom put out because of the game and did nothing.. I edited my strawpage.. my spacehey.. and talked to Benson. I may have reconnected with an old opp so that's a thing. If he's reading this good for him idk what to say. I don't hate him much or anything but the way he treated the friend group was a dick move he is what kept us together. We all kinda split after that. It was like the break up of a band.. I wish I was in a band.. The only thing I can play is the harmonica and barley the keyboard. I completely forgot how to play the drums. I've just been sitting around listening to Beck while talking to people on discord like an incel. My life sucks I'm so fucking depressed with nothing going on in my life. I have missing schoolwork I should be doing but instead I'm laying around doing nothing.. I have a CEA to do.. A coding website to post.. coding work to catch up on. My life sucks so bad. I've listened to all of Beck's album Morning Phase today. Love it. Sad album.. won a Grammy though.. I don't think it's even his best album.. it did not deserve that Grammy even Kanye knows that since he interrupted Beck's speech at the 2015 Grammy awards... anyway I'm going to bed it's 10:08pm on a Sunday and I have school tomorrow. I'm already failing like three classes this is so ass. Wish me luck or smth. Waittt no an old friend just DMed me I must stay up and say hi or something yayy people still actually like me after all these years. I've known this critter since kindergarten it's been 12 years.. They sent me a Mike Patton edit from TikTok oh that's so cool. I love Mike Patton. He's a great singer. He's in more than 7 bands. Faith No More, Mr. Bungle, Peeping Tom, Tomahawk, Lovage.. there's like a lot more and probably some even I don't know of. We talked for a bit. Me and Clover. Not about much. Just basically caught up on personal preferences. Benson went to bed and said goodnight. Clover's profile picture is Gerard Way. Reminds me of our 7th-8th grade emo era. Good and bad times were those years. It sucked being the most bullied kids in school but it was fun being the most diverse and chill group. Yeah but the Gerard Way pfp.. damn bro is still staying at his roots. It's cool to see people really find themselves through their music taste. Clover hasn't changed much. But I have.. as is the ways of a bisexual Beck-loving white boy!! XD

I had a snack and a drink and I believe I'm off to bed. I still miss my old friend groups. The online ones and the school ones and the personal ones.. you ever just want to eat a random hot pepper with no repercussions? The repercussions being getting yelled at by your mom for eating the pepper she was never going to use or put into food no matter how many times she claimed to or "planned on it.." I hate living with my parents. I can't wait to move out. Parents being separately. They're divorced and hate each other LMFAO!! Can't say the same about my ex's parents. They're divorced but on good terms.. god I miss him like a motherfucker :')
Yikes maybe I'm just gay.. nah I like women Helena Bonham Carter, Geena Davis and Catherine O'Hara are still all bad AF >;)

Shit it's like 11:00 boy does time fly when you're writing a blog LMFAO!!! G'Night. XD