Make myself relieved

I often find myself trapped in a cycle of replaying certain moments in my mind to a degree that feels unhealthy. Sometimes I find myself obsessively analyzing a specific moment, either to justify my words and actions or to reimagine the scenario in a completely different way, as if trying to relive it 

I don't bring this up to portray myself as a victim or a morally superior person. I do it to alleviate any feelings of shame, guilt, or embarrassment linked to that particular moment 

I hope that one day I will no longer be required to perform this