why am I dealing with this stuff at 16

some crazy stuff with feelings are happening rn.. two of my friends got crushes on me which I'm trying to navigate and I no longer have a crush on that guy I was talking abt before (I came to my senses) as it was mostly just physical attraction if I'm gonna be real .. 

I've started to tell my mum about my private life more which is helping. I first talked to her about my break up a month or so ago so now I feel more comfortable talking about everything that's going on in my life now which is helping SO MUCH ... I love my parents I'm never drinking again or going to parties or anything again ... Like sure, drinking is fun but I felt guilty the WHOLE TIME bro it was NOT WORTH IT.. I know alcohol explodes your emotions but I didn't know it would do that with SHAME and GUILT bcs that's crazy.. I thought it was just the silly fermented potatoes that make you stumble wdym I'm contemplating my morals rn.

ANYWAYS!!! college on tuesday and I'm gonna have come face to face w the guy (who I used to like) after I DRUNK TEXTED HIM ON FRIDAY. But the drunk texting wasnt anything that bad, it was just humiliating to say the least..