i love my best friend

like, in the best friend way! but not in the best friend way. i love love love him and when i found out some declared to him i felt anger, guilt and sadness. do i love him in the romantic way or in the best friend way?? like, i want him but not really. he says that he "isn't gay" but... what ab me!!!! does he not like me back... we cuddle, we hug, we give eachother kisses on the cheeks yet idk!!!!!!!

well, everyone declared his love to him. i get it. he's fun, attractive and himself!