My lost love

When I was in a clinic school last year fall I already noticed her in the first class we had,I sat next to her and she instantly asked my name,I already then noticed how my heart started beating faster,she was so pretty and voice like a lullaby,in break time I noticed the way her eyes sparkled,oh my god she was the prettiest girl I ever met. We became best friends but I noticed how I always felt so warm and safe around her and when I hugged her for the first time it felt so nice I felt like I was gonna scream. We started texting daily and after short time I noticed how I was falling for her so I one day told her. At first she wasn't sure but two days later she became my girlfriend. Oh god I loved her more than anything in the world,seeing her smile and be happy was the most beautiful thing ever. I always bought her gifts,stood up for her even to teachers and always did everything I could for her,I even baked and cooked for her. A few weeks before her birthday she told me she wanted to break up,that was the biggest pain I ever felt to this day. But I just let her go,when we started dating I promised her to do anything to make her happy and if letting her go was what made her happy then I would not stand in the way. It's been more than half a year since I ever heard from my sweetheart,I fear I'll never see her again. If I had one wish I'd wish to hold her one last time,see her smile one last time,hear her voice last time. It's been so long there hasn't been a single day I haven't thought about her,I still cry about it,I haven't cried since the break up except about her,everything else just felt not worth crying. I almost had my whole nail pullen out,there was blood everywhere but I couldn't shed a single tear. I have a boyfriend now,I'll be meeting him for the first time tomorrow. I love him so much,but never the way I loved her,that doesn't mean I don't love him. She's just unreplaceable. I hope my sweetheart is happy,it's my only wish in this situation. I want her to be happy. I love her and will never forget her. 

I'm sorry,I just had to let these feelings and thoughts out <33