i want to ask for help but i cant get myself to

i wish i could just ask to talk to someone when i need it.

i hate asking for help these days.

i bottle everything up and want to actually die.

i wish i could just have someone listen to me without the worry of sounding weird.

i cant talk to anyone about anything because no one gets it.

no one understands what i deal with and how i respond to it .

i genuinely feel the end is coming soon.

i wish i could just let my anger out to someone.

anyone.

actually,

i dont want to talk to anyone.

i want to bottle up everything and die without anyone know why or what happened to me.