The loneliness is getting to me

I usually don’t write sad things but emotions should always be expressed in some shape or form. And rn I’m extremely lonely bc I’ve only been in love once in my 18 years of living and that one time lasted 3 days. After that incident, I caught myself trynna replicate that feeling or that person in other people within other relationships and ofc it never works. I don’t wanna date someone for a week or a month then break up and call it a day, I don’t wanna date someone to fuck them or any nasty stuff like that, dude. Online or not, I just want something so real and genuine. Like, to be intimate with someone fully. Do yk what that feels like bro? They see you as the world beyond and you see them as the universe beyond, you love them fully and they love you unconditionally, a love so real you don’t have to be reassured not even like “puppy love” bro but like intimacy. I crave that. Anyways as of now my type is a blonde petite girl with no friends so if your reading this and ur around my age then I need me a blonde petite loser girl friend who plays video games all day and has zero social skills and is possibly autistic. IF THATS U HMU I WILL LOVE U UNCODITIONALLY. Don’t believe me? Here ima kiss u rn. Mwah. Bitch.