A night time series (vol.1)

Hii! My names Vincent(or Vince) and I just wanted to start writing about whatever comes to mind during the times I can't sleep! Since its 1am at the moment, I just thought of this idea and I... I'm not so sure, I just wanted to start it! 

Things about me, is that I go to an all girls school(I'm closeted), I like boys a lot! The main purpose of this account is to get a boyfriend, I see people get them so easily and ik jealous〒▽〒. I am also ftm, but I still like to dress feminine and stuff. I read a lot, I am rereading no longer human by Osamu Dazai at the moment but I am planning on finding a way to buy tickets vol.4! I am pretty sure there's something wrong with me, but I'm not sure how to tell my mom, she doesn't understand why I can't talk to people and keeps saying how I need to try my best and how I can't be a weirdo or loser, but I'm too scared to ask her to diagnose me... I have been getting easily sick since I was a child, so I got a surgery and now it's less, but still quit often. I like to play video games, and draw, and I like shoujo animes, because if it wasn't obvious, I really really like romance. I also really like a lot of styles like jojifuku(the style I am), Gyaru, vkei, Jirai Kei, ect. Though I love reading, I am very bad at reading smaller letters or from just slightly far away(I told my mom and she told me she would go to the eye doctor, she never did.) and reading in class is very hard, I live in Spain, so reading Spanish is sometimes hard for me, but I've been living here first around 4-5 years now so I think its fine. I spend over an hour on the bus to go to and come from school, it's driving me mad!! 

I know this is probably a lot and most people wouldn't read this, but I still think it feels refreshing to just let every thing out on here. See you in the next volume, tootles★´∀｀★!!