I hate cupids arrow

I hate cupid and their stupid arrow. my ex (code came: lost) and the guy that's nice (Candy) keep beefing. Lost scares me though, I don't want him to,,,be difficult. but candy is so sweet and kind. I'm lost. my head just sways. do I want to open my heart again and try again? or do I want to hold it close and hide it. 

its scary, how do I even know if he's flirting? Candy likes to walk with me, be sweet, carry my stuff, drew stars on me.. Jesus....what am I supposed to do? what if lost has something planned?