Wednesday, Oct 2nd, 2024

it's me with the crazy life updates again!!!! Spacehey feels like my last alternative when I lack the ways to properly communicate how I feel (￣ ￣|||) I actually got an autism diagnosis, and I'm sick of the matter cuz this week has been terrible overall. Not really in the mood for complicated explanations, just want some way to uughhh get these feelings out of me (凸ಠ益ಠ)凸!!!!!

Here goes my new shot at socializing (⌒_⌒;) 
 have no idea on how to refer to myself just yet, I'm 15 now. I never went back to the hospital, and I'm pretty amazed by how much I've improved. But the thing I've been upset about with the 'news' is no matter how much I try to be better, there's something fundamentally different in how my brain works, and I'll never get to experience the world as it is. so haven't been patient in terms of healing, and now I don't want to bother trying. This is it.
You could say that's burnout, and these feelings are not strange to me. I've dealt with this. tryna keep the lil sticks that hold me together in place. Feeling things is so annoying. Kinda feel life I gave up this week. Do not expect anything of me right now!!!!! I will cry!!!!! Please be patient as I'm terribly stupid
world here I am!!!!!!!!! Not even bothered to try!!!! You will handle me  you won't get rid of me. It's not going to be that easy.

thx for visiting this post. I don't have much to offer right now. That's me. It helps to share cuz then the neurons on my brain can read and that's how I interpret information … not guessing what I'm feeling or thinking. oh yeah i've been drawing some weird little guys