this is it?

this is it?

     i'd like to begin by how my grandfather's death had changed my whole perspective to the world. it had begun on october 2021, the way my father had just gave up, he lost his father, forever. and i still go back to his house, and wonder, how it would all of this be if he was still alive, it is still weird to me, he is dead, forever buried underground, but then, religion says we'll meet again, but how can i prove it?

     i was born to be religious, my whole environment is, my parents pretty strict, but never foced me to do anything, on the contrary, they are wonderful and understanding, and since my grandpa's death i've been haunted by the idea of the afterlife, and what's after death, the truth is, i've been plagued by this visions since an early age, i was born thinking of death. because isn't it weird, how the person dies, the soul leaves their body, even though we've never saw how a soul is, does it even exist? the soul? this supernatural entity that makes us?

     i try to stop thinking of these stuff, but it keeps going, if the soul does exist, then if a person dies, where his soul go? is it just how we believe, it float up to the sky? and what sky? when there's only black void surrounding us? and if the soul doesn't exist, then the body will be eaten by the worms, and then the person's identity will be forgotten by the time, so we'll never see them? this is it? we live trapped, then we die, and that's it? then what's the point of living? what's the point of working, studying, building, marrying, waking up? what's the point of all of this, if we die, and the only thing that will be seen is a black screen?

this is it?