I need attention to survive (random vent lol?)

Like if u aint spamming me do u even care abt me??? lol

Like I dont enjoy being the center of attention ALL the time but

If you happened to be that one special person I can't get off my head for more than 5 minutes then yes I would like to be the center of your world 24/7

And it wouldn't even be that hard!! I'm a great friend!!

1. I reciprocate all the attention im given
   
2. My main love language are gifts so u gettin spoiled
3. I will put interest in whatever you're interested in
4. I will always listen to u
5. I will hate who you hate and love what you love
   

etc etc
SEE? I'M LIT THE PERFECT FRIEND EVER??? WHY ISNT [that one specific person] GIVING ME ATTENTION?!?!?!

For the record this is just something that I think not something that I manifest in my daily life because yes I am aware it is a toxic way of thinking and the mental health of my friends always comes before me wants. This is more like a random vent that I know none of my friends will see

Anyways I would kill, steal, die and commit multiple crimes for my friends as long as I'm given love and attention and LATELY I haven't been getting it and Im begining to feel sad like I actually fucking need it to function at least a little at the end of the day like "heyyy how was ur day!! tell me abt it :3" THAT WOULD BE NICE. Or maybe just send me pics of things you find interesting or just ANYTHING AT ALL?!?! 

Do I need to be more entretaining? do u no longer like the character I put up for you?? JUST TELL ME GAWD DAWM IT

Anyways owo

Gonna go make myself some tea uwu

bye bye ^w^