Waiting. And waiting. oct/1st/24

Sick of waiting. I can't be the only person who doesn't want to wait for those fun moments you know? Like you'll scroll on your phone and see so many people having fun with your friends. Now it might be selfish of me. Because technically i do have friends..and irl friends. Just as much as I wish to be really close to them. I know it won't ever happen again. And i lowkey kinda hate it. It makes me so upset knowing we won't go back to those times when we first meet. And took photos in our drama class. I still have those photos. I just wanna be a group again. I wanna have my best friend again. But I know I won't and I kind of don't want to have her back either. Cause even if she hurt me two years ago. It still hurt. And when i re read those messages. It reminds me why i won't go back. Even if she is better. I don't want to be like that again. It just sucks ass. It's not like i won't have those happy silly go fun moments. But they don't happen as much as i want. I just really wished I was happy more then this movement. Why can't things come faster? Why can't i already be at this new school faster. I want out of this school.

Anyways! Today me and my friends played your turn to die. In 2024 ik...i just never got the chance till now. We all voiced over the characters and it was fun. We are gonna continue tmr. It kinda doesn't work that it made me happy but im sopping over wanting more fun moments. I need to get over it. erm this really is gonna be my digital foot print no one knows about isn't it? well then! thats all spacehey. 

- Zakai