Digital Diary #001: 10/01/24 - “Smörgåsbord”

The entirety of September has been quite the rollercoaster of emotions, a lot has happened.

First off, I just turned 19 (hooray!). I can already feel my hip going out! (Is there such a thing as a “quarter-life crisis”?). Anyhow, unfortunately didn’t really get to do anything for my 19th birthday. A disappointing repeat of last years, with my family saying we’d do something to celebrate, only to do nothing. But I suppose I should’ve expected that this time around, still discouraging nevertheless.

On another note, it seems everybody is suffering from the “lovebird blues” this fall, everyone is either getting broken up with or having their hearts broken.

Though I seem to be somewhere in between, I’ve actually sorta met someone? It’s a tad bit complicated, but we met through online forums discussing a mutual interest. We spoke on and off for about 4 months, usually just about that same shared interest. But recently we’ve begun talking a whole lot more, and I can’t help but be utterly charmed by their witty personality and a(dork)able sense of humor!

I’m just unsure on how to broach my feelings, I wasn’t expecting a romantic interest to blossom. It’s a “tad” bit scary, but maybe that’s a good thing(?).

On the topic of “romance”, a really close friend of mine recently broke up with their (ex) partner. I’ve tried my hardest these last few days to comfort and be there for them the best I can, they’re like a little sister to me and I truly do sympathize and relate to their pain. Unfortunately it’s just not a very easy thing to “fix”, grief has no expiration date.

Anyhow, I should be getting to bed right about now. It’s 2:00 AM for me right now, and I unfortunately have work tomorrow at 12:00 PM.

¡Despedida, y adiós!