Bleh

i'm starting to crashout from work. i can't wear makeup any way i feel comfortable in. i can have tattoos, but that's expensive, so my single visible tattoo is pulling me by a thread. i can't wear my septum, and it's too big to flip, so i only have it on weekends since it's annoying to change daily just for few hours. i'm too drained to get dressed up for funsies, recently that's carried into the weekends too.

i'm not really sure what to do. i don't want to go back into the food industry because there is 0 consistency in management always, a different set of rules for every schedule, but i'm like losing myself. i think i may want to be a tattoo artist, it's the only occupation that sounds even a bit intresting to me. i just don't have the motivation to put a portfolio together, or learn digital. and i'm scared i won't like tattooing either.

i know work isn't going to be fun, but i just don't think it's normal that i struggle to be happy outside of work because of it. i'm just not sure what to do, how to move forward, or how to pull myself together for now. anybody who's gotten through this i'd love to hear how you did it.

BTW! therapists are mean. like it is surprising how selfish they are. 0/10 don't suggest working with them