Acrimony

No one tells you how hard it is to leave a long term relationship. They can tell you that it hurts and that you'll cry but in the end you'll move on and find better. But what if that doesn't happen. What if I'll never find better? Should i have just settled for less? Would it be easier to settle for what's less than to spend the rest of my life hoping ill find better than the last? Leaving a relationship is hard. Obviously. But its not the heartbreak that's hard its overcoming the pattern you've conditioned yourself to for months that's hard. It's the sudden feeling of emptiness from the person who's integrated every aspect of them into your life. They're gone now and what am i supposed to do about it? How does a person leech onto you for 9 months and suck the life out of you just for you to have to go back to the way you were before like its normal. How do you recover from that. How do you recover from your first date, first kiss, first love. How do you recover from opening up your heart to someone just for them to dig their claws into it. How do you go back to normal. How do you go back to asking someone what their favorite color is. How am i supposed to survive the anguish you put me through.