for my sweet boyfriend

i think about the first day we met all the time. i thought it was just going to be a casual day, with nothing new for me to experience, but there you were, you just came out of no where. i appreciate that day more than anything other day because i was blessed with meeting you. you have the most sweetest and kindest soul a man could ever have. well just anyone in general. you are also genuinely the most handsome man in the entire universe, and i truly, deeply mean that. 

i can still remember how you made me feel that first time, like everything around me slowed down, and all i could see was you. that feeling never went away. ever since that day, my life has felt so perfect, fuller, and overall put together. you have this incredible way of making everything brighter, of turning the ordinary into something beautiful just by being there. i don't think words will ever you'll express how grateful i am for you or how much you mean to me. it's like you've become a part of me, and without you, i don't know what i would do. i'm consumed by thoughts of you, every second we're apart feels like too much, like eternity. my love for you is all-encompassing, and i would do absolutely anything just to keep you by my side, forever.

if things ever ended between us, i wouldn't be able to bear it. there's truly no point in living any longer if you're not with me. i want to stay with you until the very end, until eternity. there's nothing i wouldn't do to make sure that happens. i just want you to know that i'll always be here for you. if you ever need me, or even if you don't. i'll be here, because i can't imagine a world where i'm not. you mean everything to me, and i wouldn't be the person i am if i hadn't met you on that random day. you've made me into a better person, simply by showing me what love can be. i love you so much. i need you more than anything. the thought of losing you, absolutely terrifies me. i would do anything, anything to protect what we have.

i absolutely owe you the world for all of the things you've done for me and i'll spend eternity show you how much you mean to me, i will forever be grateful for meeting you, my sweet handsome boy. you're not just the reason i smile, but you're the reason i exist. the reason i look forward to waking up in the morning. knowing i get to share this life with you is the greatest gift i could ever ask for. i love you more than words could ever say, and i want to spend everyday reminding you just how special you truly are to me. if anything ever happened to you, i couldn't just go on. like a swan, i would follow you even in death, because a life without you just wouldn't be a life worth living for. you are my everything, and i am yours, fully and completely. i love you so much baby, thank you for everything. <3 

9/29/24, 9:44 PM

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