rant...

Everything was so so so so so perfect last year, it was the happiest I had ever been in my entire life (which isn't saying much I have been depression since I was 5) but like as soon as the new year hit everything went to shitttttt, my moms boyfriend got arrested, my boyfriend talking to other bitches, I lost all my friends except 1, my dad is in prison, my mom isn't around, I cant see my little siblings, all 4 of them....., I had to do summer school, my closest friend ran away started doing drugs and blocked me, my phone got took, everyone at school saying I'm on meth, and beffing with me for no reason,me and my boyfriend are always arguing so bad, my only friend is cps custody like 40 minutes away so I cant even see her, my other best friends family's are so fucked and I'm tryna find somewhere for him to go but its so so so difficult, I cant eat anything, I cant be awake without bawling unless I'm fried, and this time of the year is hard for me my best friend took his life 4 years ago next month.... i got diagnosed with PTSD, but still cant go to therapy???? ugh idk I just am so depressed and really have nobody to talk to like at all and its weighing down on me so much I need a friend that will listen and talk I need anyone anything I am falling off the deep end