somber vent

usually, most of the time, i feel like i have severe (and debilitating tbh) brain fog. im not entirely sure the mechanics but most of it comes from anxiety, using the internet, physical inactivity, and my current environment. some days i can shake it off of me, usually my anxiety somehow gets flicked off as well, but its never long, usually ending when i leave the bathroom. i just.. i get a glimpse of who i actually am under the anxiety, and i get actual mental clarity but then i just go back to what feels like a black hole. i know vaguely what i need to do but im just not sure how the hell to get started yknow? im just stuck, for now anyways

i just hate being trapped in a cage that i know isnt me, i know my brains also just trying to protect me, but i cant take being like this anymore. its not like im suicidal (anymore), but im just tired i guess