maybe (vent?)

maybe all of the problems i have its my fault, maybe all the bad things that happend and will happen will be my fault, im so stupid, im so incompetent, maybe i deserve all of that shits, maybe i should die honestly, idk if i can handle this anymore, everyday i wake up thinking if i will get ok until the end of the week, its been a while that i dont feel happy, pretty, funny our smth like this, im such a shame, i think my dad was right when he said that i have a problem, maybe.