Touching death.

I am currently grieving my beloved pet rat who died about a week ago.

This experience made me realize something that I don't remember dwelling on before, despite the fact that I have lost many close ones during my life.

Once they are out, it's not them no more.

This is something i obviously knew in theory, kind of like how most people know there is a large amount of sugar in energy drinks - but you don't understand the implications before you get to see it right in front of yourself, and touch it.

At first I was shook - he wasn't very old, I did not expect him to go so soon.

But I think taking him out of the spot he died in and getting to bury him with my own hands made the grieving process much easier and faster, it would be more stressful to give him away to the local vet and not be present for the handling of his remains.

I wish i got to see the family members who died during my lifetime before they got burried.

I think the human brain is just not wired to handle loss through word alone, some people might not be in the state to see their close ones, and i belive they have the right to refuse to see them - but it should still be an option for those who want and need it.

Such a shame that death is considered taboo - it really makes the process of grief tougher.