hate book :O!!

I need to ask if this is normal cuz i feel concerned for myself that i made a hate book with a list of 20+ people i hate and a list of 1 person that i want to XP. and i made profiles for each person i hate and basically made fun of them with CRAZY fuckin insults. one one page i drew myself h@nging myself cuz i said "would rather pass away than date him". im not sure if need to see a therapist for this but yah!! luv you all!