i fucking hate when i get overstimulated

i've already had super bad misophonia ??? i think but i noises that are loud and excessive even down to dog barking, hearing a neighbors tv, birds chirping, smacking ur gum, chewing sounds literally anything make me sooo irrationally angry if i cant remove myself from it. ive gotten a lot better but sometimes i still kinda crack out over it and i always get so embarrassed bc nobody ever gets it!!! and i've never met anyone who is the same way so i just feel insane. 

anyways i live next to an elementary school and dog park (didnt know that when i moved in) and i've honestly done so well at not letting the non stop sound ruin my mood or completely overstimulate myself. tonight this dog was just on someones balcony barking non stop and i ended up screaming out my window a few times to ask them to make their dog stop barking. i used to do this sooooooo much in my early 20s too like i know thats kinda insane but i also am insane so i guess checks out?????????????  

anyways now im embarrassed and ihave no one to blame but me lmfaooooooofmlooooo if you read this thanks, i dont know if that makes me feel more or less embarrassed. anyways im hiding bye