I feel I am breaking.

I feel I am breaking to what I once was, nothing.

I feel like my insides are being used to warm others hands.

I feel I am being used as oxygen.

I do not feel like myself anymore or what I thought "myself" was...

I am left here with unanswered questions that none of us have the power to answer. 

I am lost. 

I am denied mercy for I am not worthy.

I get on my knees and "pray" to a God people say heals all, I am left with no reply.

I am as fragile as a glass doll, do not shake me as I will go spoiled and unwanted.

I speak to those who understand, they are not real.