09/25/24

for the last hour of work today i hid in the basement and played video game on nintendo switch i feel good and alive. it's not time theft if i am otherwise near perfect at my job , got everything else done , seldom spend an idle moment otherwise during the day , and only do this once in a blue moon ; it is exercising my constitutional right to hang out. + i get paid 15.75 and the majority of my coworkers get paid 18-22 to do 10x as much of this as i do on the clock

conclusion: chill out more

it has been temperate enough outside to where we have been able to leave the ac off and therefore leave the windows open. i usually have to go to sleep in complete silence but hearing the outside is nicer. i have been waking up too early to the sounds of the birds and the sun in my face and i have been getting up to close the window and go back to sleep. the sun is usually in my face either way and that is because i refuse to close my blinds. i have no reason for this

the window is now open

i recently finished secret little haven by victoria dominowski. i had been meaning to play it for a long time. it's an immersive and well written story with an ending that feels good ; it makes incredible use of the medium and general concept it works with, it's kind of what i was hoping emily is away<3 would be like but i got bored of that game and never finished it. that + trans and cute , a genuinely compelling story that was fun to play with realistic well written characters. wholeheartedly recommend but maybe play it windowed bc the controls started to get fucked for me closer to the end in fullscreen and i had to replay a lot, running it windowed seemed to abate the issue

some recent moments that have felt more human than most & some images i have liked -

i don't take as many pictures as i should of life in general but i take a lot of pictures of my room and my house because i take immense pride in the home & life i have managed to build for myself ; i see it as archival but also as a slice of life environmental storytelling with themes of trans and coming of age and actualization ; i have toyed with the idea of making a zine about it. i have been taking pictures with the idea in mind of still life or environmental storytelling since i used to take pictures of the center console in my car when i would smoke in public parks and parking lots and parking lots of public parks to avoid being at home ; now i have a home that i smoke in and enjoy being in. i have been taking field recordings whenever i get the chance

i watched american movie again on friday and i feel good

if you feel so inclined check out this video of my band playing at a festival that means a lot to me that i never would have ever dreamed of playing at

this was nice. maybe i will keep writing and posting it , maybe i won't

happy birthday jenny marion