Poor Life.

I wish I was born rich.

Do you ever believe in Rich Privilege? Cuz I do.
Born rich, powerful, and with nothing to worry about.

I, now a teenager, I am distraught about my health.
I don't want to get sick physically or mentally, I don't want to develop some sort of crazy illness that has a cure but takes millions of money just to get cured.
Because WE. DON'T. HAVE. MONEY.

Every time me and my siblings get sick, my mom becomes paranoid. Thinking about how'll she get money to buy medicine.
Sometimes, I see her cry while thinking about getting a job overseas. She doesn't want to leave us.
I also see her cry about her debt. Loan sharks are awful.
I feel sorry for her. I feel pity. Pity for the sad woman who's trying to feed us.

Meanwhile, I wanna move with my dad because my dad has a job, unlike my mom. 
I'm not disrespectfully saying this, It's just that I think I can live better with my dad.
Yes, I love my mom. But I think she can't provide the things that I need.
I've talked to her about this, She agrees with it. Though, we don't have any contact with him.

The only one who can help me now is God.
I'm hoping he will change my life for the better.