Toxic friends lolz

Why the heck is it so hard to find actually good friends??? Like one fell in love with me (I made another blog entry about this one) and the others just ignored me like I have 2 real friends and my trust issues do not let me fw them either. My first friends ever literally ignored me for gate 6 years I wasted being friends with them, and they would never let me join games with the, and it SUCKED. They would do things without me, and when I left, one of the friends told me they didn't even notice I was gone. They deliberately made plans without me because I talked too much and it was the worst :( does this happen to everybody??