05: school + life

hii, i'm back!! (acting like it hasn't been ages lmao)

ok, not a lot of things happened these past few months, but i'll still update, and i just have a lot of stuff going through my mind lately, and i want to write it down i guess.

so first of all, i started senior year! it's so crazy to think i'm going to be an adult soon, and graduate, and leave everything i've ever known!! totally not scary at all!! senior year hasn't been to bad lately, i'm not too stressed about college applications as much as my friends, since i'm going to community first. the workload definitely isn't as bad as junior year (i was on the verge of a burnout after that year lmao). my teachers are all really cool and i like them a lot! except for my english teacher...I HATE HIM OMG. that man is singlehandedly killing my love of reading and i DETEST him for it. DOWN WITH KROD!! (10 points if you get the literary reference <3). hopefully i survive his class, wish me luck!!

second, i went to homecoming a few days ago! it was my first time going in all four years of high school, and OMG IT WAS SO FUN!! i had the best time with my friends, we danced so much we were literally hobbling when the night ended LMAO. the only thing i was a little disappointed about was that the dress i was going to wear got lost in the mail THE DAY BEFORE HOCO?? like it said it got delivered to my mailbox but it was NOT THERE OMG. it was alright in the end, my dad took me to like three different stores and i found a dress i liked in time. i had so much fun that i kind of regret being all "i hate high school functions!!!" and not going in the past years, but oh well. i'm planning on going to prom too, so i'm excited about that!!

and finally, this isn't really something that happened, but kind of connected to homecoming. when i was dancing with my friends, there was a moment where i thought like, oh. i'm not going to be here, in this moment, ever again. and it was SUPER weird, i was like tearing up to "starships" by nicki minaj LMAOO. but yeah, it got me thinking, moments like these, i'm never going to get them back which is sad yeah, but wouldn't it be even sadder if i just spend that time worrying about not being in that moment again?. i'm never going to be 17, dancing with my friends, ever again, so i might as well enjoy it, right? is this my frontal lobe starting to develop??

ok that's it!! watch me leave for another 6 months teehee byee

stacy <3