i hate everything

i hated not being in college and i hate being in college

theres just... no difference to me

i need people to like me

or else i just know i'll be a bother

and i can't stand there just knowing im bothering everyone

there's this 40yo who acts very much like a teen. i hate her

i hate how im somehow good but not good enough at masking, enough to not disturb everyone all the time but not enough that it just goes unoticed

i mean, it does, if you're the teachers

i fukcing hete it

i wanna die

i wanna disappear

go away

fucking die

like

overdose or something

idk anymore

im tired

tired of emotions, of feeling things, of wanting others to like me even if i hate them

what

the

fuck

is

wrong

with

me