9/23/2024

my day: kinda like how it is every day. days go by so much slower in hs, idk how the upperclassmen manage to survive this.

today's schedule + comments:

before school: i overslept. i set an alarm but still woke up late. i had a dream and both my best friend and my crush were in it...it wasn't bad or anything, i'm just a bit concerned. i made it to the bus on time for once but had to sit next to someone. i don't have any friends at my bus stop/neighborhood so it's just kind of a drag.

2nd period/geometry: i slept through a few parts of the class so i missed some answers in my notes. i'll have to fix that later. i swear the girls at my table hate me, they keep side eyeing me. i don't have any friends in this class yet, so it's just a matter of waiting for the period to end. i got homework.

4th period/yearbook: we did peer review but it didn't take long to finish and we just kinda sat there the rest of the class. i don't have any friends here yet either, and i kinda doubt that i'll get any in this class since it's mostly upperclassmen.

1st lunch + 6th period/biology: my friend wasn't here today, so i sat with my bio classmate and her friends at lunch. my group's science fair proposal did better than i expected. i grabbed a packet to work on so that i can retake my test. i talked with my friend for a decent amount of the period after we took notes. i got homework here too.

8th period/history: two girls complimented my top before class started, i think i can consider that a highlight of my day. i slept through most of this class and didn't do my work. (it's not due until next class though/MORE HW)

after school: it started raining and i didn't have anyone to talk to so i just went straight home. i really need to make more friends, it gets very lonely. people don't really text me that much so i get my company from the vocabulary app that i keep forgetting to delete.

rejecting a guy over the weekend made me think about my crush. i've been trying to come up with ways to get to know him and when we do talk, he seems to like talking to me but i'm still questioning whether i'm being a homewrecker or not. (seriously, do guys in relationships react to another girl's messages with hearts??? or in general just text them the way he does with me??? idek man...) im not approaching him with romantic feelings, but i don't even know my feelings. i miss him a lot, i wish i had tried to get to know him more before he moved. the time zone difference is really inconvenient.

my classmates are mentioning hoco and hoco proposals more, and it just reminds me how im gonna have to go there alone this year. i don't think im ready for a relationship, but i still want one if u get what i mean

overall rating: 1.8/5

today's rating is very lonely

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