long time no see.

its been over a year since i logged in. lots has happened. at the time of making this account i was in a pretty sh*tty mental. never logged back in but now im back and doing a lot better. celebrating me and my fiance's 2 yr anniversary (we separated for 6 months in between, but it doesn't count to us.) so just a pretty good look for the upcoming holidays. pretty excited to make sweet ham and stuffing and cranberry sauce this year for Thanksgiving. I used to hate the holidays, i have never had a functional family, but God seemingly blessed my small 5 member family with two gorgeous baby girls, P and E, ones a year old since the 20th and the other is 8 mo. im glad shit took a better turn. i often think what the hell would i be doing with my life if we didn't have them here. i dont wanna know, but i love those girls.