distraction

another day passes and school began and i couldn't stop thinking about that feeling and i do l like remembering how it felt and reliving it but at the same time i hate that for many reasons , most important reasons are first, i don't want to get attached knowing non of that is real and probably something new to distract myself and create a new fake delusional atmosphere to live in and runaway from whatever things i have which i know eventually will destroy me when i realise its not true and the second , i have much more important life or death things i should've been doing or done but instead of thinking and writing about all of that bullshit .