:3 #17

Okay so basically I had a lot of plans for my birthday but I literally cannot even afford going on a bus rn like I walked for an hour and a half the other day to meet my friends after college. Oh well though bc we've got a plan for the day before my birthday we're gonna go into town when it's dark and take some polaroids.

I got one of my new friends snap the other day bc he saw me sending smth to a gc in class so we've actually been talking like every day and it's genuinely surprised me bc normally when I add people we literally never ever talk. Sometimes I really don't know what to say though bc rn he sent me streaks earlier like 3/4 hours ago but I normally send streaks later so I just left it and he's sent me another snap and some chats but he can see when I've last been online so I don't wanna half swipe rn. It's not that I don't want to speak either but when he sends snaps he actually shows his face with barely ever a filter on and like I like when people do that and I've tried to be like that but I physically cannot. Like last night we were talking and he sent me one and he was still in his normal clothes and stuff while I was wearing the most atrocious fit, laying in bed like a lazy fck with no makeup on and my hair scraped back and I have a fringe right so when I have my hair back I look like the little lad. So anyway I had to turn off my laptop and get the lighting rlly dark and I shook my phone a bit so it was all blurred. 

Oh no the thing is as well that I could just put a really obnoxious filter on like I normally do like it's either freddy or like a roblox avatar or smth like that but I always have to hold back bc the first ever time I talked to him he said that he hates games except minecraft. I also told him that I play guitar bc I can play like one song with no pick incredibly badly on this old electric one with no amp that my sisters boyfriend gave me all because I knew he played guitar and I didn't want him to think I was that much of a degenerate. I think I'm just still excited that I made a friend by myself and they aren't just a mutual one that has to talk with me bc they want to talk to my friend.

Anyway I'm still so excited for that concert in November. It still seems so far away though but I still need to make an outfit. I bought this skirt but it's genuinely so short I want to sew shorts into it but I can't with how the skirt is built. I need to buy new shorts anyway. I also really can't wait for my switch I need to play splatoon but omg I need to revise. I was meant to do 4 hours this weekend and then 4 next week before my test on friday but I'm just so tired like leave me alone. I can't even revise in college either bc I'm either getting there just as the bell goes or going home as soon as class is over. During my frees though I just yap to my friend too much to actually do anything either. But it's okay bc I actually do my work in psychology because I have no friends in that class to yap to so technically that means I don't have to revise and I'll still get an a* . I've just noticed too how many times I say like when I write D: