horrors of being a hobbyist with an underlying (possibly untreated) attention problem

kind of a lengthy post since it's 2am and i have nothing else to do and i'm very bored, i want friends.

i was diagnosed with a.d.d when i was a child, and for the longest time i thought i was "cured" since i didn't throw tantrums at every opportunity i got. turns out it doesn't really work that way and i've been losing focus on a lot of things pretty often, to the dismay of me.

don't get me wrong, when i focus, i focus pretty hard, but i lose that continuous flow of... "focusivity" after a minimum of 10 minutes, to which i just, lose all motivation and do something else. it doesn't really bother me since i can still relatively get things done when prompted, but that's led me to not being able to achieve the quality i'm looking for with my work.

by work, i mean a lot of things; videos, art, personal set up, a lot of things. i'm not essentially looking for 4k high definition cutting edge quality, far from it, but there's always this underlying thought i have whenever i finish a project where i go "i know i could've done better, why didn't i do so?"

i dunno man. i guess i can find solace in knowing my skills get better with each finished project.