#1 entry - why everything is dumb, and thats okay

first post
for the past few hours ive been crocheting and i pondered alot about why everything is inherently trash, starting with school. 

no one tells you how weird it is to pretend you actually care about quadratic equations when we all know were gonna get sucked into corporate hell and spend our days trying to stretch one paycheck across a life of overpriced bills, groceries, essentials etc and slowly rot from the inside out. like, when was the last time anyone in real life was like oh damn i wish i knew more about solving for x or proving a triangle is a triangle while theyre stuck in traffic?

+ relationships. people are out here posting on platforms being all like "looking for the 1" when all theyre really hoping for is someone they can trauma bond with over their unresolved issues. literally. ive seen one unfold. most people are out here treating emotional baggage like some pokemon collection. oh!! youve got trust issues? cute >_< i have bpd (self diagnosed js because they experienced HUMAN EMOTIONS) and commitment-phobia. lets see which one destroys us first? :3 its not even about love anymore and these people still act all surprised when their e-relationships collapses.

theres more i could say. but none of it really matters. at the end of the day the earth keeps spinning. why stress?

anyway this is where ill dump entries for me to look back to and maybe tell myself damn i was such a hater, or damn i was really going through it huh. so yea !!!!!!!